Dear Birthmothers:
It has taken a long time for me to write this letter. Not the lack of wanting, simply because I did not know how to put into words how wonderful my experience was. I know that sounds strange considering the situation but it is true. I was
surrounded by loving, compassionate people the whole time. At first, I was quite scared and uncomfortable at the idea of going to another place surrounded by strangers in a time that things are not comfortable anyway. Once I arrived at Adoption Network, though all of my fears faded away. Everybody was so comforting I felft at home very quickly. The decision to give my son a better life was not easy, part of me wanted to be selfish but
deep down I knew I was not ready to raise a child. I could not give my son the life he
deserved by keeping him with me.
So with Judy's help I chose (in my eyes) two people that god must have brought to me,
because from first moment I saw them I knew. The more time I spent with them
the surer I became that angels would raise my son. It is a hard thing to let someone else raise your child but remember a child is a gift, a gift of life. If you are not ready for this
gift think of all the wonderful people out there who are ready. People whom for one reason or another cannot have a biological child. Your child could be the miracle they might not have had if not for you. So please for your sake and your child's if you are not ready to be a parent keep in mind there are many amazing people out there who are.
Jillyan A.
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